Ok ... So today is THE day!! Today WILL be THE day!!
I started my 60 day juice fast a few times during the past two to three weeks, but I always failed. Yesterday I thought it might be a solution to sort of write a diary and keep track. It's going to be embarrassing to flunk or to give up, so I hope to stay on the wagon, finally!
It's a hard thing to do and even though I know it will change my life for the best, I have an extremely hard time not to sit and eat anything.
Just now I returned from a meeting in my office. Do you know just how embarrassing it is to sit in a conference and your stomach all of a sudden starts growling so loud that everyone in the room turns to stare at you and even the speaker stops talking and looks at you ...!!!
I have not really had a chance to dring juice before I went to the meeting. I only had some water and took some supplement capsules, enzymes dandelion, thistle and minerals and some wheat grass capsules, hoping the capsules would dissolve and I would stop me from being hungry. Well ... I now know, I should've taken a juice or more of the wheat grass powder itself. Luckily I had a large bottle of water with me at least, but regardless ... even though I drank it, my stomach still growled noisily, plus ... at the end of the meeting I was in a bad hurry to rush for the women's room!
So why do I do this fast? Well, honestly, I do it for the sake of health and also for losing weight, I must admit. I'm not "nearly dead", I don't have tons of pills and medication to take, actually I'm not taking any medication at all. But I do suffer from an illness called "Lipedema". I have been suffering from that illness for all of my life. Only when I was a child, it wasn't as clearly visible as it is now.
So what exactly is a Lipedema?? I checked wikipedia and it says: Lipedema, known as lipoedema in Europe, is a chronic disorder of the adipose tissue generally affecting the legs, which causes the legs, and sometimes the arms, but not the feet, to accumulate fatty tissue. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lipedema)
I can't remember not having big legs ever. As a child I never bothered though and when I was old enough to date, I was always ashamed to wear skirts or short pants. I heard a lot of bad mouthing from others ... kids can be very hurting ... and even doctors told me to stop eating so much then I wouldn't gain that much weight and wouldn't be so fat.
Only in 2006 - meantime I was already fed up with the stupidity most doctors confronted me with when telling me to lose weight and not to eat so much - I was finally diagnosed a Lipedema ... finally!! Finally a doctor treated me for what I was ... a human being! A person! And he didn't tell me to lose weight. I was already quite annoyed when I entered his office. Much to my very surprise he looked at me and before I even said "hi" he said: "Wow, how many times were you told to lose weight and not to eat too much?" I was flabbergasted and wasn't even able to answer at first. He was actually the very first person to take me serious, to tell me there was an illness called "Lipedema" and that this was what I suffered from.
So now I finally knew what the cause was and why I had big legs. I finally knew I wasn't stupid, I finally knew now it wasn't my fault ... well, not ALONE my fault. Of course I was also guilty of eating junk food for years and not doing enough sports, even though I practiced Judo and Karate and Body Building for a long period of time. But then I had a slipped disk and not being able to move at all I rapidly gained a lot of weight which I had never been able to get rid of again. Nevertheless it hit me like a slap in the face, because this meant I wasn't able to lose weight ever ... so I thought.
So, this shall be the motor to get me going I hope. As far as I was informed, a Lipedema is not curable, but I'm hoping, I might still be able to at least lose weight to make it a bit more "bearable". That's what I'm doing this for. This is the reason I've started this journey and desperately hope to be able to stay on the path for at least 30-60 days. And this is also the reason why I started this blog. I hope it will help me to hang in there and somehow support me.
I started my 60 day juice fast a few times during the past two to three weeks, but I always failed. Yesterday I thought it might be a solution to sort of write a diary and keep track. It's going to be embarrassing to flunk or to give up, so I hope to stay on the wagon, finally!
It's a hard thing to do and even though I know it will change my life for the best, I have an extremely hard time not to sit and eat anything.
Just now I returned from a meeting in my office. Do you know just how embarrassing it is to sit in a conference and your stomach all of a sudden starts growling so loud that everyone in the room turns to stare at you and even the speaker stops talking and looks at you ...!!!
I have not really had a chance to dring juice before I went to the meeting. I only had some water and took some supplement capsules, enzymes dandelion, thistle and minerals and some wheat grass capsules, hoping the capsules would dissolve and I would stop me from being hungry. Well ... I now know, I should've taken a juice or more of the wheat grass powder itself. Luckily I had a large bottle of water with me at least, but regardless ... even though I drank it, my stomach still growled noisily, plus ... at the end of the meeting I was in a bad hurry to rush for the women's room!
So why do I do this fast? Well, honestly, I do it for the sake of health and also for losing weight, I must admit. I'm not "nearly dead", I don't have tons of pills and medication to take, actually I'm not taking any medication at all. But I do suffer from an illness called "Lipedema". I have been suffering from that illness for all of my life. Only when I was a child, it wasn't as clearly visible as it is now.
So what exactly is a Lipedema?? I checked wikipedia and it says: Lipedema, known as lipoedema in Europe, is a chronic disorder of the adipose tissue generally affecting the legs, which causes the legs, and sometimes the arms, but not the feet, to accumulate fatty tissue. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lipedema)
I can't remember not having big legs ever. As a child I never bothered though and when I was old enough to date, I was always ashamed to wear skirts or short pants. I heard a lot of bad mouthing from others ... kids can be very hurting ... and even doctors told me to stop eating so much then I wouldn't gain that much weight and wouldn't be so fat.
Only in 2006 - meantime I was already fed up with the stupidity most doctors confronted me with when telling me to lose weight and not to eat so much - I was finally diagnosed a Lipedema ... finally!! Finally a doctor treated me for what I was ... a human being! A person! And he didn't tell me to lose weight. I was already quite annoyed when I entered his office. Much to my very surprise he looked at me and before I even said "hi" he said: "Wow, how many times were you told to lose weight and not to eat too much?" I was flabbergasted and wasn't even able to answer at first. He was actually the very first person to take me serious, to tell me there was an illness called "Lipedema" and that this was what I suffered from.
So now I finally knew what the cause was and why I had big legs. I finally knew I wasn't stupid, I finally knew now it wasn't my fault ... well, not ALONE my fault. Of course I was also guilty of eating junk food for years and not doing enough sports, even though I practiced Judo and Karate and Body Building for a long period of time. But then I had a slipped disk and not being able to move at all I rapidly gained a lot of weight which I had never been able to get rid of again. Nevertheless it hit me like a slap in the face, because this meant I wasn't able to lose weight ever ... so I thought.
So, this shall be the motor to get me going I hope. As far as I was informed, a Lipedema is not curable, but I'm hoping, I might still be able to at least lose weight to make it a bit more "bearable". That's what I'm doing this for. This is the reason I've started this journey and desperately hope to be able to stay on the path for at least 30-60 days. And this is also the reason why I started this blog. I hope it will help me to hang in there and somehow support me.
